Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
Things have been a blur this past month. Between school ending for the kids, the mini vacations that have been taken since school ended, we also had a death in the family that took us to Indiana this week. My Grandfather past away . He will be missed. There is nothing more devistating then the loss of a loved one, and I reflect on the missed opportunities, the letters, phone calls, trips that were never taken and think about the value of one's life. He was an inspiration to so many and an amazing man. Death has a way of forcing the living to look at how we are living our own lives and question am I living my life to my fullest potential? Making a difference? What would my obituary read? I was told that he could have continued to take medial actions that could very well have saved his life, but that he requested that these measures cease. He died on his terms with dignity. He was a man who truly lived a fully rewarding life that touched many. As I morn the loss of my Grandfather I will also reflect on what his life represented and the impact it had on so many. I miss you Grampa Jim.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
First weigh in at Total health. I have lost five pounds, but realize that it has not been about what i have ate, but more what portions I have cut out. I had several opps moments this past week, and have to admit that I have not exersized at all. I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it....call it lazy, fearful, whatever, but i just have not been able to find the opportunity or will to get moving. The weekend is always busy, kids were of priority earlier this week, and it's like a freaken heat wave today. Always something. I just know that it is going to be evn more difficult to get to the gym once the kids are out of school. I was able to get a good portion of my scrapbook project done yesterday. I just need two more layouts and a few tittles to say I am done. Saturday is the baby shower, so I am hopful that I can swing it. Tonight is busy, tomorrow is a possibility...infact I am going to have to get it done tomorrow, as Friday is busy and bingo the shower is here. Livin life, feeling a bit discouraged today, but trying to get back that GRATITUDE, I was feeling last week about this time. WOW. Just recieved winning tickets to Watkins Glen speedway races the weekend of the Hellava Good races. I am not at all sure what that entails, but it could be a fun weekend event. I will have to do some exploring. Well I am off.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Well it has been one whole week that I have been a self proclaimed SAHM. I must admit that I am struggling at finding my mojo with this gig, although I did spend time yesterday at the peditrician, made several other medial appointments that have been put off due to conflict in previous work hours, and was informed that my 15 year old has not had a physical since 2008. My youngest must have stuck his foot in a bug hole as he has about 4-5 bites that have swollen up so badly we needed medical attention. He has stayed home again today....as I am sure I will get a call from the school nurse minutes after I drop him off saying "come and get him". What ever happened to the days when.....?I recall going to the school nurse ment you spent the day laying on that cold cot for hours or gargling salt water. You sure didn't call your mom to come get you unless you were on deaths bed. But,,,I digress. The weekend was enjoyable. Friday evening my son and I went to the Taste of Syracuse, I did not eat as I am DIETING, again!!!! (Down 4 pounds since Wednesday, if nothing else not working has been a diet success so far) Saturday was spent with family enjoying Chittenago's OZ fest. Sunday I recoped and bashed myself for breaking down and having pizza the night before, of course this was after I had a Sunday doughnut. Hubbie got mad when I threw out the remaining reporting I was not the only one who lives in this house. I just couldn't take those thing looking at me any longer. Was quite please to step on the scales this morning and had not gained back any weight. Working on a baby album for a friend who is having triplets. THREE babies....I can't even imagine. Plan to finninsh that up today, do some cleaning, perhaps some shopping, and have found I really am enjoying Ellen at the end of my SAHM work day. TTFN
Thursday, June 2, 2011
I am welcoming myself back to life!!! Some of you have had the fortune of never making a poor decision, letting yourself get out of control, or royally BLEEPING up!!!! But for those of you who have.....you may have a bit of sympathy for me. YES!!!! I have spent the last year of my life feeling STUCK in an abusive, self dystructive sprial of poor pathetic me. It started with getting laid off about two years ago....and progressivly got worse. The Titanic of the whole ordeal was staying in a JOB that simply reinforced all of those derogatory messages that some may have spent years in therapy to rid. So after several months....and my husband will claim from the start....I have finally taken a leap of faith and the full support of my loved ones because I NEED everyones reinforced "this is the right thing to do". I have quit. Voluntarily JOBLESS!!!!! A totally new concept for me. A REALLY Scary venture. But as I start into day #2 I am ready to take on possibly the most difficult job I have ever had. The job of living my life!!!! Stay tuned for the job description. For the first time in a long time......I just cannot wait to see what the day will bring!!!! BRING IT ON!!!!!!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Happy April 2011- I did not realize that I have been away from my blog for so long. Several things in my life have changed since Jan. and I guess I have been busy attending to such. New plan is to get back to scrappin and bloggin. HI EVERYBODY.....
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Has been a busy week. Work has been a blessing. I am beginning to think that my boss's New Years Resolution was to stop being so evil. Last weekend we all enjoyed a 8 year old slumber party. I think the boys stayed up till at least 3am when I finally came down stairs and said...OKAY all games off. We all spent that Sunday recoing. Gavin is scheduled to start soccer at the end of Jan., my car has a ton of issues that need to be addressed, and my poor mother has broken her leg. Of course she waited to go to the Dr nearly five days before she found out what was wrong. I feel terrible because she fell in our driveway. As hard as Mark tries none of us can be on that snow fall all the time. Had to miss the CTMH unit meeting yesterday as my Hubie was in a poker tournament and I had the boys. We did go out and make a visit at the casino and the kids got to swim, but I am really missing my UNIT. Did get to see everyone briefly and making plans to STEP up my game. Hard to believe it is already the 16th of 2011, but apparently there is never a down minute in this household. Plans today to make a fire, order some CTMH products, and play with my current scrappen stash. Should be uneventful, but fun.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
1/2 the way down. Wow! the week is actually moving quickly. I was so tired last pm I came home made dinner, and sat and watched several hours of meaningless TV. I caught this special on coupons. It was quite amazing to see these coupon kings/queens save 95% of their grocery bill just using coupons. Imagine a $230- grocery bill costing like $6- bucks. Okay so I was fascinated. Thing is they don't tell you their secrets short of spending several hours in prepration for their shopping trip....and as exciting as that savings may be, I just don't have the time or patience to do such a thing. I also caught the new Paula Abdul dance show, while I flipped back and forth to the new biggest looser season. I didnt claim to have the most exciting life....but I did enjoy the simplisity of just doing nothing. Maybe I will step it up this pm, and clean a little.....
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Surprise Surprise....yesterday was a pretty good day. Work went well, no Problems.....I didn't get everything I had hoped to get caught up on, but things did progress well, and my first work day of the new year was a success. Must stop catastorfizing (i know this is not a real word) everything. I even made it to the gym and took my first ZUMBA class in over 8 months. I did get a smack of reality.....I am soooo out of shape. Did my first layout of 2011, signed my youngest up for soccer, and although I did get several on call calls last night, none of them were big time emergencies and I didn't have to leave the house. I am beginning to realize that perhaps I am the maker of my own misery, and perhaps if I just stop worring about what will happen and just live....things are really not as bad as I can make them out to be in my head.
Monday, January 3, 2011
As if Mondays aren't hard enough, coming back into a work week after an extended weekend, and two days ill, SUCKS. I am three days behind walking into the dreaded Monday morning meeting, picking up the on call phone, and finding myself truly dreading the day. I keep telling myself that I can't do anything about the week before, but the fact that I have 101 things that I have to do to catch up, just keeps poping into my head. So what number on my resolution was that thing about sleep eat work...oh yeah number 1. Go figure this happens to be the week that I am so far behind and I have work duty 24-7 until next Monday. Did I really buy into the idea of an on call position? Really? Was I truly that desperate to retun to work that when that part was mentioned during the hiring process I simply tuned that out? It seems to me there was alot about that your hired day I seemed to have missed. Anyways, I am attempting to walk into my first day of the New Year with a whole new attitude about Mondays, my job, and everything to do about the work experience. It's gonna be a GREAT day (forced smile)! And maybe, just like the trip to the dentist, when it is all over, I can say...okay it really wasn't all that bad.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Into day number two the the new year. I did get into the house cleaning, and made a major dent. Had a nice dinner with my husband, finalized the birthday for next weekend, and spent the evening with friends loosing terribly to the men 80's trivial pursuit. This game was the re-match from the last game the females lost. My husband is just to damn smart. Unless he's on my team I don't forshadow a winning in my future. Church this am, more cleaning, then off to the YMCA with some more friends. Perhaps then I will be to create this pm.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
So we begin 2011. Since I am finally feeling better, I realize that there is a ton of things that need to be done around this house. Okay so noone really wants to spend New Years Day cleaning, but it has to get done...and no I am not including house work on my list of sleep eat and work. I will get things done around here so I can enjoy the rest of the day. Number one on the list is get the tree down....although it really feels like I just put the thing up. Tree down, tidy up the rest of the house, make some big birthday plans for my youngest who turns 8 next week, do some me time....send out some Thank Yous to family for their Holiday cheer, start some New years scrapping and CTMH planning, dinner perhaps with the Hubby...we celebrate 9 years together today!!!! Stilll in love after all these years, and be ready for day 2. Perhaps this year I will do a 365 day scrap book...maybe that will be fun....and I am off. I will post later if I become at all creative in the day and have a artistic masterpiece to post I will return until then. HAPPY NEW YEAR.....I am already feeling that 2011 will be better and brighter then 2010.