Tuesday, December 29, 2009

As the new year approaches.....

I can't seem to believe that the Christmas Holiday has come and gone....and with it, a new year approaches. I seem to recall that last year at this time...I did have some form of new year commitment.....the question now is what was that? I have never been very good at sticking to those RESOLUTIONS, and I am quite sure I have made at least one resolution year...NOT to make any silly RESOLUTIONS just because of that FACT. Loose weight has always been on that list, be more organized also seems to be a top contender, get to the gym more often.....keep the house clean....oh and there is always the project commitment that never seems to get started or if it has started...never finnished (I still have blue painters tape on the floorboards of my livingroom from a paint job I started two years ago, an entire craftroom of albums not finished, papers and cardstock thrown in baggies with those MUST scrap pictures, tons of undeveloped film, and boxes upon boxes of a now 16 year old's kindergarten drawings just waiting to be packaged together as a keepsake.) It seems to me.....as I have known myself now for 40 years.... my resolutions do not stick, and I fear making a New Years RESOLUTION will only be a repeat of the last several years of such. (better not produce a self fullfilling prophecy). So this year......NO RESOLUTION....NO COMMITMENTS to self proclaiming that ....this will be the year when.......This year I am going to simply LIVE each day to the fullest, taking each step ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!! Today I will LOVE in LIFE...not wait for the day when. This does not mean that I intend to live foolishly.....I do still have life commitments to attend to...but instead I will stay in the moment, be carefree, spontanious, joyful, and FREE!!!! I can invision the day when.....I weigh 130 pounds, and everything is organized, the bills are all paid, I have the perfect job, my house looks like a centerfold of Better Homes and Gardens, I have money for and on and on and on......I have been invisioning such things for many New Year's pasts....thing is, I have managed to miss out on the NOW. So for this year......I do not have any futuristic prediction on what I will be doing........and just how much happier I will be WHEN.......This New Years....I am going to just BE.