Feb. 18th 2012

The breaking of the BOARDS!!!!

Last evening was exciting. Once the family all arrived home from work school and out of town we headed to enjoy my step sons Karate event. (big show is today). Last night was an intro to what we will be seeing today and BOARD BREAKING!!!! I have to say I was pretty impressed. It is so nice to see the end result he worked so hard at getting to this pt. (2nd degree black belt). The way they moved was like dance all synchronized and with music. It was pretty amazing. I really cant wait to see more this afternoon. We had pretty good seats right up close, but after 2 and 1/2 hours of sitting on high school benches crowded between many people I was done. My back was killing me, had it been an unexciting event I may have just walked. Glad I didn't it was quite enjoyable. Once they had done a practice of the stage show it was on to breaking the boards. (I thought that only happened in the movies). I was awed watching boards breaking left and right with what appeared to be little effort even from little girls that had to be younger then my son. It was truly amazing! My step son broke a board with his hand and one with his foot. Pretty freeken COOL. Once it was all over we found a Friendly's had a nice dinner and it was soon 9:30 and time for bed. Long day with work, mother in law, benches and slow waitresses but outweighed by income, family, an amazing display of my step son's abilities and achievements and of course a turkey club melt with a dip of my spoon in my son's monster mash sundae. Cheers!

TGIF-Feb. 17th 2012

Made it to another weekend!!!! My mother in law is coming into town this weekend and we all have plans to enjoy my step son's Karate. Tonight is board breaking and tomorrow is the graduation show! I gotta give his mother credit...with practices three to four times a week, early weekend mornings in the cold, late Friday night practices...and she doesnt miss a one, even if my husband is bringing him. I really dont know if Id have the dedication. I would squak at any of my own kids rehersals, practices, dance and games and most of those for the exception of my daughters theater was at most two days a week. My youngest has shown an interest in football and around here if your playing popwarner football your a parent "invested" not just with time but money, volunteer, bake sales and solicitation of raffle tickets. So if he's gonna do it....I guess I better learn to be one of those kinds of parents. When I was a kid, I played HOCKEY (yeah girls hockey). It was pretty much unheard of unless you lived boardering Canada. We were the only local team, so that pretty much ment we had MILEs to go to play a game some games in Canada...and guess who drove, put up hotel money, dropped off and pick up from practice at sometimes 5am on a cold Sat. morning? My MOM!!!! Gotta love her....maybe I'm just to selfish? I guess if my kids were committed to something I'd do it too. I might grumble through it, but I'd stick it out. Wow- my husbands ex would be shocked to hear that I admire much of anything about her....(must have taken some happy pills this am). Bubbe on her way, house somewhat straighten up, chicken wing dip in the crock pot (I love that stuff!!!!) Looks like things are in order. Posted pictures of all my sons valentines and look at this cute mp3 player made of candy!! to Cute.

Feb. 16th 2012

Well....weeks is almost over. There really isn't much going on!!! Survived work, made it home made a big batch of frosting for my cake decorating class, did a mad dash to the grocery store, went to class only to find sitting in my seat at class was an elderly lady with a quilt square. WT? Somehow they double booked the room. Class is CA!!!! Well a little disappointed I went home. Maybe I should have taken my butt to the gym instead, but relieved that I really didn't have much else that I HAD to do for the evening I went home. Been working on my week to week scrapbook, I just need my pictures developed to finalize and I'm actually caught up to the current week. I have enjoyed putting together a weekly "diary" of my life. What has been fun is I wouldnt usually scrap most of this stuff, and I have using up my old stuff. It's alot easier to find scraps of paper to fit a 4x6 mini page then a 12x12. Plus Im diging into my old stickers I've had left around for years. Great idea!!! Thanks for the challenge whoever came up with it. Today is my low key day at work,. No group scheduled just individual session. Pretty much a day to catch up on back work, and I feel pretty caught up already (knock on wood, that never happens and I shouldnt speak of it...). Spoke with my dear friend Kelly last night. Damn do I miss her. She moved to Fl about six-seven years ago. I've been fortunate that she has made several visits back north, Ive made one down south, and we call all the time, but it would be nice to have her here all the time. We met in the HEY Day of our wild and crazy bachlorette days. Yes we were wild. Found our "true " (not really) loves around the same time had children and as it happened found ourselves as single parents together. If your gonna have to raise children alone may you be as fortunate to have at least one awsome gal pal whose going through it with ya. (not that I would wish single parenthood on anyone) it was just easier to have somone who was dealing with all that single parenthood had to bring with it with you. So she was there during some hard times, certainly some happier times and boy was it nice to have her this time. Looking at the clock it appears that despite the written word that there was not alot going on I have certainly found a way to make the time pass, and I had better get a move on. TTFN.

Feb 15th 2012

Better today. Still have some lingering anger, but better. I was able to make some sugar cookies that I found in the fridge and the kids helped to decorate! I made some Valentines day cards and a nice dinner. Irritability still lingers with my husband....I still feel the issue was left unresolved, and I feel like we have the same argument over and over and over again! My relationship tendencies are to shut down and get out. Of course I haven't acted on that in many many years and I havent thought about leaving my husband, but I can feel myself shutting off. A big warning sign for me is when they breathe and it reminds you of someone running their nails down a chalk board..Thats when I know I'm on my way to DISENGAGE! For the most part I tend to be Pissed off for a few days and move on. It be a lot easier to move on, if the issue was different or even if I felt like we were on the same damn page with things. For the record; No he is not having an affair and No I am not in any way shape or form being abused. On that same note, I'm not having an affair or abusing him either. Things do have to change however...and apparently I'm the only one who can make a change if I'm the one who continues to be bothered by it. For now, I'm gonna sit comfortably in my distance! On to better things. Work today! My daughter gets TB reading #2 for clinical, cake decorating tonight and I think that new show faceoff is on at 10pm. (totally think what they do with makeup and a little casting mold is amazing)! For the most part, it could be a decent day!!!! Here are some pics of valentines day treats.

Valentines Day 2012

I let my anger get the best of me yesterday, and I'm still stewing in it. Trying hard to let it go and enjoy the "sweetness" of today, but it's not going so well. An argument with my little one about not having his winter coat (he left it at his Bubbe's) lead into a full blown war yesterday morning, and then later an issue arrose with my SO. After my daughters medical appointment and a quick dash to find a winter coat (only to have my son decline the one I found), all children were at school and the stew fest began. It pretty much lingered throughout the day and my later surprise put me into such a FUNK I spent the day trying to shake my irritability by catching up on The True Blood series #2. This helped a little. Rest of the night continued my pout fest and I didn't stray to far from the security of my couch (remote tightly in hand). This morning, I find myself caught in a big case of the F-it's as one might say, not thrilled that I actully have to get myself out of a pair of sweats pants, put on a happy face and take my joyful self off to work. Although I had all day yesterday to make some valentines for my family and I had so hoped to make a cake with my new skills....I did nothing. Regretful yes, but I really just wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere and stay hidden for eternity. It used to be that the reality of things I could handle, I just dont know why I find that at this stage of my life...I really don't want to step up to the plate. I'm so tired all the time, I more often then not force myself to enjoy the moments...I so just want to throw my hands up in the air and say...Oh well!!! What do I care. Sad part about it, is sometimes I really don't CARE. The truth in that statement scrares me to death! With that I guess I had better put on a fake smile, get myself prepared for the day and ready to roll. Maybe after I get out of this house and my work day ends, I will feel more ready to embrace my family and celebrate Valentines Day. I still have time to put together a heart cake and I do have my chocolate gifts to give.

Feb. 13th 2012

These are the layouts we made at Consulant Club- Designs by Sandy VanNorstrand my amazing upline and dear friend.

I must have been in the delorian yesterday. I thought it was Feb. 11 all day. Missed the 12th of the month somehow. Sunday was uneventful. Infact I really don't have much to say. Family returned! Worked on Nick's financial aide. Did more scrappin. Caught up on the weeks that I missed to be on the current week so I can continue to scrap my life one week at a time. Made speghetti for dinner, helped the little guy with his first take home project, and watched Once Upon a Time before bed. Way to much action for one day. Not! I am excited for the next two weekends, although my hubby will not be around for our big date night with everyone; I'm gonna go with another friend whose hubby wont be around as well. We have Karate, Karate and more Karate next weekend, then hubby and kids gone again for the Feb. break! Guess I'll be doing more scrappin. Well, I had better get ready for the day. My daughter has more shots for clinical this am, and I gotta get the little guy ready for school.

Feb. 11, 2012

Good Morning- I thought I had my day planned out yesterday. Cleaning, shopping, scrapping. I did all three, but the time frame didnt stretch and at about 4pm I was missing my family, the house was making (it's to quite) noises, and I was board! My daughter....reported she needed a "girls night" and went to her friends house...well hello!!! I'm a girl don't I count? TG my friend and neighbor rescued me and she and her hubby kept me entertained til about 11pm. We watched "redkneck vaction" (Or maybe it was hillbillie vacation) I dont know, but it kept us entertained. House was cleaned by 10 am, I went thrifty shopping, had my favorite soup at Wegmans (Cheddar Broccoli) took a sub to go for my dinner, (I ate my lunch at the Wegman's cafe- I have decided that Wegmans is the Disneyworld of groceries, everyone was SO gosh darn NICE!- Thank you Danny) went to both Joanne's and AC Moores. I skipped Hobby Lobby, (I was only suppose to be window shopping, and I had already maxed any budget) so I decided I'd better go home. Got home and started to scrap. I had seen a post about a weekly scrap of one's life and although were at week 5 of the New Year, I started the first and second week (shown here). I've got all day today, so I'm gonna try and get caught up. I have been hitting up my sticker stash from about five years ago to make this project come to life. What fun. No pictures from about Jan. 1-Jan. 20th as my camera was broken and in the shop. This was the second year I didnt get any Christmas or G-mans Birthday pictures. (Whats with that? I seem to break a camera every year.. and around the same time). I had hit the thrifty store, looking for some hidden gems (no luck). The furniture prices for second hand stuff seems high to me, I did find this cute set of scrubs for my daughter at $3- and I got each member of the family a little box of chocolates for V-Day! It was really quite an enjoyable day! TTFN- Off to Church, get a Sunday Paper so I can plan my attack on the grocery store with my COUPONS and weekly meal planner, then to scrappen while I await the return of my family. God Bless!